I miss my future sailor like crazy!!! And things have been tough here at home.
I'm young, 20 in September to be exact. I've been with my future sailor for a year and a half. Woohoo!! Boy have things changed. I made a discussion a while ago (deleted it) about me freaking out because my boyfriend was giving me an ultimatum, and I didn't give him the reaction he wanted (I never think before acting/speaking lol). But all is settled now, and I'm going INSANE missing him! Ugh!
As for the things being tough around here, I quit one of my jobs because my bosses were close to evil (do NOT work in a cheap daycare people!), and have yet to find a better one. My family isn't wealthy by any means so basically, I need a job to give myself the things I want. And my current job sucks! So yes, frantically searching for a good job in my area. No luck yet...
Also, I haven't gotten any letters :'( Should it take this long? I talked to him on the phone for a bit on Saturday (3/15/14) and he told me he's been writing everyday somehow lol. But nothing in the mail! :/ Nor at his grandmas house!
And lastly, my boyfriends son's mother has banned me from seeing their son until my boyfriend is out of A-School. My heart has been shattered and beat to say the least. Especially with the amazing relationship I've made with their son (who is almost 3 years old). I always respected her and respected that he wasn't mine,but treated him as my own. I ALWAYS put myself in her shoes because I know this situation (especially with a young child) SUCKS, provided for her son when Daddy was going through his own financial struggles, and always let her know that I was there if SHE or her son needed anything! .. So this definitely came out of nowhere. But what can I do? Nothing. Because she has taken advantage of having full custody of him for now. I must say, that was TOUGH and I wasn't sure I'd be able to go on, ignoring my boyfriends amazing son but still be in this relationship. If that sounds harsh, please don't take it that way. The thought only crossed my mind briefly, because then I said to myself: My man is going through some crazy training right now, missing his son himself, missing his family, friends, and the normal lifestyle he was living. And I'm proud of him and love him so much more for that, that I'm going to fight through this crazy pain, and let this be seen as an obstacle that I'm HAPPY to overcome.
So with having a crappy job, missing my man, missing his son (and all the horrible thoughts that come with his mother telling me I can no longer see him), it's definitely been tough.
This is a pretty unique situation I'm sure, but if anyone is dealing with anything like this, please let me know!!! I'd love to talk and vent!! Maybe shed a few tears lol.