Yesterday was my birthday. I missed my boy so much it was the first time since he was born we spent a birthday apart. I did not feel to wake up but I did and I did try my best to hold it together I kept crying everytime I was alone which really did not help the mood of my dinner party. Everyone kept saying how lucky I was to have great sons and I must be so happy that he is out of the house. Don’t people understand that I did everything for my sons and do they not understand that my boys are not a job they are part of my home. I look at his vacant room and wonder when he’ll be back. I try my best to do other things to distract my self but then you’ll bump into someone who would ask about him and give you that sad look of poor thing which does not add to this process I am going through. I feel like I am useless that my son no long needs me. What do I do with myself? I know I need to pick myself up and move on but it is difficult. What do you all think?
Thank You for letting me vent