The holidays are over

[LA]

The holidays are over and Daniel is back at A school. I've tried to stay busy with work so I won't think about how much I miss him or how worried I am he'll be sent to Afghanistan after A school. We were all so happy to have him home for Christmas (especially Fat Lu). Now that he's gone again. I don't know who's more depressed me or Fat Lu. I'm going to try to keep my mind off my worries with our up coming spa. I guess I relax more when I help others relax, weird huh. It's just that when Daniel is home I know he's safe and he keeps my youngest in line. With Daniel gone my youngest has lost his biggest influence, Fat Lu is depressed and barely gets off her chair and I keep having nightmares. Christmas was happy but stressful with knowing Daniel was leaving and my youngest being out of control towards the end (I think partly due to his brother leaving again). I'm trying not to: worry about Daniel too much, not to stress out completely over my youngest, not to miss my daughter and Grams, not too miss my husband (he's @ training in Colorado) and lastly trying not to be homesick for the Cape, Wow what a whiner I am. I've got to stop just "trying" and just do.