Harder

[Amanda]

Does anyone else feel like it almost gets harder as it gets closer to graduation? I mean the communication is better so that's easier and you get to hear their voice a few times which makes that easier too, but its been such a long time since she has been gone that with each day my heart aches a little more. It's not the same kind of hard that was in the beginning, but a different kind of hard, and man is it hard! It's also hard to explain lol so I hope this makes sense.

[Tammy⚓️Girl]

As my son got closer to PIR -- there were many mixed emotions.  I knew he wouldn't be the same as the day he left for boot camp...and with that I had mixed emotions.  It's weird how men process this situation too, my husband didn't have the sadness I had, and in a way that helped me.  I said to my husband, aren't you sad.  He said, no, I'm happy for him -- he's doing something with his life..what do you want, for him to be laying around here.  And with that statement I started to look at things differently.  I will tell you what my mantra has been, "It's his life."   So when I say mixed emotions, yes, you can be happy and sad at the same time.  I wish your daughter all the best.  

[lemonelephant]

Since your wife is in BC, it is a little different for you than for a mom, but there will be some similarities. Some are concerned about their recruit passing the tests as there is a lot that has been learned or passing the Official PFA if there has been an issue along the way and the possibility of injuries or sickness, but through that you have pride that she is doing this. Hopefully her division has come together and now work together as shipmates and are helping each other so that they all make it through. You know that she won't be the same as when she went in and you don't know how those differences will affect your relationship. As you get closer to PIR, you realize that new things are coming for both of you and that may affect your emotions. Her "A" School is relatively short, so you will need to prepare for a move to an unknown duty station in a little over a couple of months. Hang in there and know that there are others who understand.

[Amanda]

Hi Tammy, I definitely can understand that point of view! This has been a dream of hers from the moment I met her 5 years ago (its actually my wife lol) and man I could not be prouder! I knew it was going to come one day and that day sure enough came. I know here at home she did not want or plan to go to college, it just wasn't for her, so the worth she's already feeling brings me so much joy! <3 I'm not sad for her though, at all really. I guess because I know after A school I will be going with her, my heart just aches from missing her </3 which is a feeling I'm just going to have to get used to.

[Amanda]

Thank you Lemon. It's definitely hard! Her last test she was nervous about was on the 10th and I didn't get a phone call so YAY! and she was 1 push up away from the top score on her second PFA so she'll breeze through that as well. Maybe since all that is good to go now I can't help but think about our future, you are probably 100% right. Thank you for your kind words, it means alot!

[lemonelephant]

(((((Amanda0602))))) That's a hug for you.

[Amanda]

Lemon- <3

Also, new problem for me LOL I can't hit the reply button on the comments haha this site reallllly doesn't like me anymore LOL

[lemonelephant]

The site has glitches every now and then. It is crazy that there will be different issues for different people, but usually several are having the same ones, and different issues for me depending on the day. I can Reply today, but I couldn't on my laptop earlier this week and could on my phone and I also didn't get the message that PM's were sent earlier this week even though they had been so I wasn't sure what went through and what didn't even though the PM's were in the Sent box. Also on Wednesday I could post on some Members' pages and not on others and it wasn't related to which ones were friends or just members, which really doesn't make sense. Chat also acts up  several times a week.

[Vanessa]

Amanda yes that all makes perfect sense. I understand how you feel. I got to talk to my son finally last night. I was crying at first because I was so happy to hear his voice but he sounds stronger than when he left. I cry daily. Happy and sad cries! I read tammygirls response and I agree 100% with her! I tell myself that my SR is setting himself up for life and he can look back on his life and be proud of his choices. Hang in there !!❤️❤️❤️❤️

[kkxdmom]

I totally understand what you are trying to say and are feeling. I'm the same way.  I think we are just feeling for them SO much, that it is hurting us more than them. It seems like I'm feeling everything she feels and more. It's almost like I can't stand knowing she's trying to just stay strong, worried about academic and physical testing, missing family, home, etc. I honestly just try to give my worries to God so I can focus on the positive, but we are human and we are moms and there's that connection that just causes everything to pull at our heartstrings. You are so right, that it's hard to explain and put into words! But this is good for them and for us and I just keep telling her (and really myself as well) that once she graduates, A school will be different because we will be able to communicate on a regular basis, send packages, and even visit. I'm worried by the time that gets here, then she'll be over it and won't need it as much - lol!! Hang in there, we'll all get through this together!!

[Amanda]

<3 <3 <3

[Amanda]

Lemon- Ah gotcha. Well the pros definitely outweigh any technical cons of this site!

[lemonelephant]

:o)