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Comment by NitaSewBee on May 6, 2011 at 9:13am

Dawn.. I don't remember  if you did or  not.. but I had no idea. I am terribly sorry for your loss. The weekends events.. would have opened my  sores.. I can't begin to imagine  how Bin laden's death has effected you. Happiness that his vileness can't hurt anyone else, but  a bigger  sense is that  it won't  bring your loved ones back. It's like it's happening all over again. I  am sorry for you and your family. I wish that there was something I could say to make it better. For me, yesterday was the 6 month 

Comment by NitaSewBee on May 4, 2011 at 7:43pm

 Still haven't gotten my carpal surgery,  have had  other pressing  issues. hope everyone is doing well.

Comment by NitaSewBee on April 3, 2011 at 11:40am

>Dawn, i told my hubby what you said, He told me;that I probably should get the less dominate hand done first, then a few ;weeks later get the other one done. I don't know what I want to do. I just know that Six Flags opens next month and I want to be able to go in the water area. so I  don't really kniow. Well my daughter told me its nice out ;so I think I will get dressed and;see for myself. Hope you are having a great day

Comment by NitaSewBee on April 2, 2011 at 6:16am

 Dawn, do what I do,  set up your sewing machine outside, I have even taken my machine camping with me.  Of course where we used to go camping, there was electricity on each site. but still, If its really nice out, if you have an outlet outside your house, bring  the machine outside.  I do have a little singer that also runs on 4 AA batteries. As for projects, I am working on a bunch of squares for  quilts we are doing  in HAE (Heads At Ease) and  in the  HeArt of Quilting.

I just found out I  do not have MS, however having Carpal Tunnel  is interfering with my crafts. Since I have been out  of work for a year now while they have been trying to find out what the heck was wrong with me, having the surgery now would be a good thing. Then maybe I will have a  easier time. I will be working  on something, my hand starts hurting, and I stop what i am doing. Simple things like washing dishes is a chore.  And sex is a chore too.  It has been a hard 3 days. one filled with alot of emotion. . For some reason I have been feeling  quite  agitated lately, moody. Being out of work has been tough,  haven't paid the mortgage in almost a year. My  pay  from work was doing that. Having to depend on my hubby for stuff, not having any "free To  do what I want" cash Losing my job, then mom's death, then finding out I  had nerve deafness , then being tested for MS. then finding out I was okay. I have  to admit at first I was pissed at the idea that maybe  I lost  a year of my life for what?  But my sister pointed out to me that  being okay is great,  and maybe I needed the 10 month  to regroup. Being home has been awesome, gaining weight hasn't been, having doctors tell me " if you lose weight, you'll feel better" I have a thyroid problem, its hard to lose weight.

My hubby and I are at odds right now because even with the hearing aids, I still can't hear anything as well as I'd like. I don't  always hear what they are saying right now and don't acknowledge when they are talking to me. and they have to repeat themselves. And with the hearing aids I can hear myself talk and think I am talking loud enough, but I am not. Its like being a baby and learning to do it, well now  its like I am learning all over again, I feel alone, but i know I am not, I feel like I am in a vacumn that is sucking out my enthusiasm. Getting on here  where I can type is  so much easier my eyes are my ears. OMG, the irony of it all. My  ears don't work, my eyes do,  Mom's eyes didn't but she  could hear.  And we  both lived in a world of silence. Wow.. I wish I thought of this, but at the time I thought I was  just clogged in the ears. I used to get impatience with mom  because she kept saying" I am Blind"., but she  had ears she could hear, her life  had to be readjusted. But being in a nursing home  is hard enough. losing your eyesight when you are a crafter is  cruel. Now I understand  Because I am living it.

 

Yes my son in Japan worries me  some, but because he is up north, He's  a little safer. But knowing that kid, He would  want to get in there I haven't really spoken to him since  before he left. I have seen  him on facebook, but that is it

 well anyhow i am starting to feel  a little better, but I wish I had known i was going deaf, I could have  found a way to  communicate better.. Mom was in a world of darkness, and I feel like I am in a world of silence, especially when the  hearing aid batteries go dead. thank you for helping me to unload some of this.

Oh yeah, my son is getting his tonsils out on Tuesday.. My hubby is really  going to go crazy his wife can't hear, his son can't talk But  my son's  voice will come back after his throat heals, my hearing won't. Then  when he has to get the rest of his teeth taken out, talking is going to be hard for him. Understanding him talk now has been hard  for me because  I can't hear him and what i can hear, I can't understand. him. With him having  hardly any teeth now, his  words are slurred. just as mine were slurred when  I couldn't hear. We both sound like  we have  had a stroke. And when he has a cigarette in his mouth and tries to talk, and my back is to him, or we are sitting side by side, I want to slap the  guy. Him losing his teeth is because of  years of smoking, and the blood vessels constrict loosening up the teeth. and not taking care of his teeth because they hurt. He doesn't  understand the impact his smoking has had.  but that's  a whole different chapter.

Comment by NitaSewBee on March 31, 2011 at 7:09pm

 Well its been 5 mos Since she's been gone. I miss her and dad very much. last nite I was really  feeling ad. but today I am feeling  so blessed for the time we did have her. My living room looks like the clearance  sale at JoAnn fabrics. I keep saying I am going to get rid of some of it, then I change my mind,

well my son is in Japan on deployment again. I  pray that he is doing well, and working hard,  but having fun too. well I gotta go make my son something to eat. talk soon.

Comment by NitaSewBee on December 21, 2010 at 7:11pm

This will be my first Christmas since my mom died. She died HAlloween morning. It was hard to see her go, but her quality of  life wasn't what I would have liked to see for her. She lost her eyesight in 2005 to lymphoma. She was legally blind and since she was a crafter, one can only imagine how she felt not being able to sew or crochet. I ended up with her fabric and yarn and while she was alive, it made me feel sad to look at it. When she passed, only then could I bear to look at it, much less put it to use. I  have done alot of sewing since she passed away. Sharon.. how are you holding up? your mom's anniversary date  just went by. My prayers are with you. What  have you done to remember her? do you have some special  traditions?. What is  really ironic is the fact that my dad was gone 7 yrs on the 25th of October..My dad died 4mos after my daughter had my first grandson and my mom died 4 mos after my second grandson was born. I had a funny feeling it was going to happen this way again, and I somehoe knew she would not see Christmas. 

Comment by Sharon ~ K's Mom on February 24, 2010 at 12:20am

Having lost many loved ones, it is good to be able to have somewhere to go. I lost my mom on 15 December 92 just five days shy of turning 58 years old. She passed from cancer and it has been quite challenging over the years. I then lost my youngest brother to suicide on 16 June 01. That has been a totally different type of journey. We were pretty close and I miss him as I miss my mom every day. I miss having our table chats with them and sharing laughs. On 09 Febraury 09 I lost my dad to dementia and sadly on 02 December we lost our youngest sister's husband to a sudden heart attack. The doctors messed up with him and it has made me very angry. He died the morning before he was to have a heart cath, they waited over a week after he failed his stress test. He had one blockage that should have been stented and he should be alive. This one is hard because he was young, leaving two sons, ages 7 and 13 years old and of course my sister.

It is always hard to lose a loved one, I know with God's help and His grace we get through each day.