Lessons

[Heather(Lucas' mom)]

Well...I've been on this site for a while but have never communicated with anyone. Just gleaned all the information I could. But if I don't express myself a little I feel that I might burst. I constantly feel on the edge of crying...and it doesn't make sense because I will see my son PIR next week. It may have something to do with the fact that last Thursday he got a reward phone call and tried 3 different phone numbers and not one of us were able to pick up. That phone was sitting right in front of me and I didn't hear it! (I was at a noisy swimming pool) It just killed me to think that he might have needed to hear our voices...some encouragement. Sure enough, the next letter I get (yesterday) are two very unhappy pages. He asks for prayer, says he doesn't know if he can make it. I know he will...but I wish I would've picked up that phone. Maybe I'm constantly on the verge of tears because I know those 2 1/2 days we get to see him will fly by. I feel like even my husband cannot understand the way I feel. He read the same letter and laughed afterwards. I have a hard time connecting with him on this. I feel like this is a good lesson in learning to let go of my child and know that God is truly the one watching over him. I know that God always was....but now I definitely feel powerless. So I count on God to do the watching, God to do the comforting, God to do the strengthening. That's really been my goal all along anyway right? For my son to lean on God? And now that he has to do that more than he ever has before in his life....I've got a problem with it? Well, that's just silly, isn't it? But fortunately I am convinced of God's patience with me. He's taking care of my son as he always has...I'm just finally having to realize that it was never really me. I finally prayed the other day for God to heal this sadness in my heart. I had not done that yet. God is good, all the time. ....Remember that Heather.

[mom 56]

hi i am sorry you missed the phone call i missed one of my sons calls as well but he must be doing well if he got one .my son got out of bc a few months ago its like everything else the kids have up aand down days but i am sure he is fine and has new friends he can talk to and look after him and you have new navy friends as well we all feel the same way you do and are here for you night or day you will be going to pir next week and that is great take lots of tissues you will be so happy to see him and you will see such a changefor the better in hi be happy with the time you have with him good luck dont worry he will be fine.he will want a nice hot shower his cell phone laptop and to see everyone and sleep in for a few hours they will be tired my son just wanted to go eat and see a movie and a long hot shower he was sick when we saw him with some cold cough thing so he just wanted to relaxyou will feel better when you can talk to him when he is in A school as much as he wants good luck to you and your son have fun at pir

[eurekamom]

Good thing #1 - your son loves you enough to try to call, several times. Good thing #2 - your son went on with the next thing in front of him - good for him! Good thing #3 - your son is sensitive enough to write to you and share his true feelings. Good thing #4 - after he vented in that letter, he probably went out to tackle the next hurdle in front of him, focused on that since he got everything else out of his system. Hang tough - you're almost there with him! Hugs, Eurekamom