Letter to Nick : Date, November 14th, 2009

[CarrieAnne&Nick(Ship 11 Div 117)]

Dear Nick, November 14th, 2009

I’m writing you this letter and I’m starting now, and I’ll finish when I’ve finished. First off, I truly, madly, deeply, am crazy in love with you. I love you with every cell in my entire body. My love for you will always be here as long as you let me love you, Nick. Please, let me love you, because I know I will love you forever. I know I will. Of course I cannot predict the future to come, but I can only pray that I have the opportunity to love your heart, body and mind forever. We get each other. Though sometimes we may seem polar opposites, or like we’re on the complete opposite page, we’re not. Somewhere, underneath all the frustration and fear and sadness, is the love you and I have created together. It’s ours. We made it, and as long as you and I are together we can keep it going. No matter the distance, Nick, I will always be thinking of you and loving you. I knew what I was getting myself into when I took interest in you, and I saw something in you that I couldn’t pass up just because you’re going into the Navy. The Navy is going to be your “home” for the next five years, but babe, know that home is whenever I am with you. It really is just you and I in this big scary world, but we can do it, Nick. I’m not naïve. This isn’t naivety speaking, this is my heart reaching out to you. I know you’ll accept. I know you’re fully in this as much as I am. I know it. I can feel it, though sometimes your sadness drowns out that feeling. That feeling cannot just disappear. And it won’t just disappear. Nick, I am so sorry for all the pain I have caused you. I know I have inflicted a lot. But, thank you for giving me this chance to prove to you this isn’t a game. This is real. I do not take this chance, your love, or your feelings for granted ever. Every day I wake up and every day that I wake knowing you love me is an amazing feeling. Every night I spend laying by your side, sad, happy, miserable, silly, anything, I enjoy it and am so thankful to have someone like you by my side. We’re going to make it through these fives years, maybe not as easily as we would like, but if we continue to love one another we will. Everything is going to be all right, Nick. Everything is going to be great. I’m writing, well, because these are things I think about constantly, and don’t always have the opportunity to tell you the way I’d like. You and I both know I am not so great with my words, but for some reason when I write everything down, it all makes better sense. I’m making you and offer Nicky. Will you please embark on this next journey of my life, your life, our life, and our relationship together? Strong? Healthy? Happy? And with all the love we can muster up? Do you accept? Because I honestly already know the answer is yes, but I want to assure you how strong and close we will always feel no matter what, no matter how far you and I may be. We have no choice but to be positive and strong. If we remain this way, the universe has no choice but to leave us the hell alone, and happy at that I realize now, the flow of this letter is way too choppy and all over the place, but honestly you understand where I am coming from and how I am feeling right this very second. There’s so much I want to say but I’m getting a little teary eyed. You’re my love, Nick. There is not a single thing I wouldn’t do for you. I would go to the end of the world and back, I would live in hell, I would jump in front of a train, a bullet, into a fire, into a crazy ocean storm. I would do anything. Everything. Because after all, I Love You more than anything and everything. I love you for you. I love your heart because it is sitting in the center of the most magnificent human being on this entire planet. It is the heart that makes the blood flow through the veins, and to your brain. The mind I fell in love with so long ago. The beautiful, complicated, twisted, strong, intelligent mind I love. The brain leading to those beautiful blue, green, ocean of eyes, I cannot stop myself from gazing into. Down to the cute nose that fits so perfectly in the center of your face. Now to those lips that I so love to kiss, and nibble on. The perfectly shaped lips that are mine to kiss and yours to kiss me back with. You’re a beautiful person, Nick. You’re going to succeed in life whether you want to or not, you will. Stay strong. You’re strong. I am strong. I will be your strength when you need it. Believe me, I will. I will be the fire that keeps you going. WE will be together all the time, though we may not be physically. I will always be in your heart, Nick. Hold me tight., keep me warm, just as I will be doing for you. Nick, I love you with EVERYTHING I have in me. I will always love you. I will always be true. I will always be here. I will always be thinking of you. I will always be loyal. I will always be your best friend. I will always be your love. And one day, I will be your beautiful wife. I love you.




Love,

Carrie Anne

Your little bear.

[CarrieAnne&Nick(Ship 11 Div 117)]

Hey everyone,

:) Jessica, thanks for the advice, good to know, I forgot I had his name in there. So thank you! And Wendy, thank you as well. Young love really is the best. The night before the day he left, he essentually proposed, though it was the typical, get down on one knee thing. So, that's definately something to be excited about! And i've already written him three letters and it's been a day, I'm crazy, but more-so crazy supportive and proud of him! Thank you guys!