I wanted to pass on part of a discussion I had last night. The
discussion was about my son, Chris, being at bootcamp. Some of the moms
there could not understand how i was dealing with him being away. They
expected me to miss him so horribly, and to be so worried about him. No,
I don't horribly miss Chris, yeah, i miss him, just not like when my
husband was deployed. I explained it to them like this, and maybe it
will help some of you with your missing of your child. ( let me say
there is nothing wrong with missing them).
I guess i have an advantage, Chris went to a 2 week Sea cadets boot camp
( same deal as out guys are going through now almost) when he was 15.
After HS, Chris went to college on an Navy ROTC scholasrship, but
decided after the first years, he did not want to be an officer. So he
was gone at college for a year also. ( he did come home every weekend
for that year though, he was 100 miles away). So , maybe i do have an
advantage some, but still.
Chris, is moving on in his life. He is a grown man, 20 years old. He
made a decision, and he is sticking to it. I am so proud of him, for
choosing to defend his country, to serve the USA. I must have raised him
well, for him to choose this path in life. We cleaned his room out
before he shipped off. Put all his things in boxes, threw out probably
10 large trash bags of junk and trash. emptied his dressers, took down
posters, and his "nick-nacks" and packed them away. This was now, the
guest room. I know, he will always have a place to live. If he visits
us, ( and he better) that room will be his. For the next 6 years, i can
only hope to see him on holidays, special weekends, ect.
I am PROUD of my son. and I want him to succeed in life. I won't be
there to speak up for him when he looks flushed and needs water. When he
gets a stain on his uniform, he has to get it out himself. I hope i
have taught him enough about these things, or has the balls to ask
someone around him.
My job, is done. Chris is a grown man who has chosen a life path that is
honorable and respectable. I will always be there for him, what ever he
needs, but now, he has to come to me, and i will always be there.
i guess i do not miss him horribly, is because pride has filled me. I
jump up and down and squeal like a school girl when he calls or i get a
letter. I can't wait to hear about what he is doing.
I know the navy WILL take care of him in so many ways. Food, shelter,
clothing, medical and dental care, moral. I am SO proud!
my words are not meant to do ANYTHING but give all of us hope, and
remind us of how proud we are.