Kindred Spirits

[goldwingmom]

My heart is with you Deontes MOM, the day I took him to meet his recruiter was really the worst for me. We were leaving home, his room and his home town for the last time, it was almost more than I could bear, I felt like it kept me from enjoying my last hours with him because I was so sad.  Yes, after I dropped him off, even though I knew I would see him the next day at MEPS, I felt like a balloon someone had let the air out of.  Totally lifeless, and weak as a kitten.  He never showed any anxiety till we got to MEPS and he admitted he was scared.  That really killed me, I remembered his first 2 weeks in kindergarten every morning when he got on the bus, his big blue eyes were full of tears.  Then when we said our good-bys in the bus line, his voice was shakey.  That's hard for a mom to bear, but at that point we have no choice or options so...............I hope our boys meet and become friends in the next 8 weeks.  Thinking of you!

[TJsMom SHIP 03 DIV 021]

Its been a really rough week. I try to keep busy but just don't really want to do much. I am going to honor that and allow myself to go at my own pace. I run the gamit of emotions from proud, to so sad, to angry and just plain missing my son. I had to laugh at a mom talking about her son leaving a yo-yo behind. We really do have so much in common with our boys and how much alike they are. Mine left a wreck of a room, too and I was telling him before he left to straighten it up because that would not go over in the Navy. I am sure right about now he is thinking mom sure was right.

Sometimes I feel like I can't breath. I have been taking drives to take my mind off things. I write him everyday even tho' I don't have an address yet. In a way it feels like I am talking to him. I am positive and upbeat in the letters. 

You know, when your kids go to college you can talk to them, see them and communicate. This feels like he's in outer space somewhere. I lost the lifeline. I didn't sleep last night. I want him to be happy, I wish the best for him. I want him to succeed.This is just so challenging and difficult. A huge group hug out to all the moms here.

[bball4ever]

I am so glad I joined this group.  My son left Monday, we dropped him at the recruiters office and he rode the bus to Meps.  He didn't want anyone to go with him to Meps.  He knew as the weeks grew closer the more teary eyed I became.  The night before he left, I made several trips down the hallway to have one last talk with him but every time I got to his door and my mouth would open, the tears would start pouring and I would turn around and go back to the living room try to get it together.  Finally he just opened up his arms and said come here mom and gave me a great big hug.  He said you don't have to be strong for me, I am strong enough for the both of us.   The next morning, I couldn't even drive him to the recruiters office, his sister did it for me.  He said good bye to me and his little brother and we sat in the living room and cried while his sister took him.  We talked throughout his Journey, this was his first time to fly and he loved it, that was the last text I got.  Then I got my 10sec phone call and now just waiting to write him.  Its Friday now and I am finally doing better, not crying every time I hear his name etc..Some people just don't understand it, and I thought am I really that different of a mother?  I have had all these other mothers laughing at me because of the way I have reacted and a few straight told me to suck it up, that didn't end so well for them.  So its good to hear that I am not the only mom with such anxiety.  I apologize for the long message.  There is so much more I could say.....Thanks Again, Cody's Mom!!