My baby boy leaves me in 3 day's to become a man!! and i'm losing it.:( :) s.o.s.

[blessedsailorsmom ship12div 039]

I can relate very much to Chris mom , I am losing it , I can't sleep and am so up and down but am hiding it... Iam so proud but yet still sad! yes "he will never be the same" and as that is a wonderful thing I still am seeing not only a chapter end in his life but a whole new book begin !and as we laugh and remincie, joke about the silly things he has done and talk about the awsome things God has done in his life we just still are left with the reality that he will be so far away and my little Nico is not so little any more
! I got up to purposely to cover him tonight knowing he kicked off his blankets as he did as a child since I will never be able to do this again ( do grown sailors get tucked in ? lol) and played with his hair as I said goodnight on Thanksgiving (we celebrated the 3ed!) I am up and down and feel like I can;t breath!!!. Can any one tell me how to live now? I was a single mom for so many years and HE was my man in my life!!! I feel like my insides are spilling out, and I feel dumb and dramatic to show my feelings to anyone. like i sad S.O.S

[LAsmom1110]

Hi all. My sons leaves for BC on Monday (11/8). You're posts are so touching. I just realized how NOT alone I am as I sit here fighting back the tears. Wow, this is hard. I too have just walked in to my sons bedroom and stared at him, stroked his head, kissed him on the forehead, and just reflected on how awesome he is for who he has been in my life. To the single mom who said he has been the man in her life....I can relate. That's my story as well. I hope that this will help keep our bond strong. If you need someone to lean on and cry with....I'm here.

[Lynne]

I can remember writing a blog much like this in June when my son joined the Navy. I remember standing at the door and waving goodbye in August feeling like my heart was shattering into a million pieces as he left for boot camp. He left me a card that said, " I love you mom. I need to find myself. Now you can cry." For the next few weeks I cried often and at the strangest moments. I started our PIR group and found out that many others felt much like me. Others had a different viewpoint. We learned from each other. We laughed, we cried, we grieved, and most we grew.

We learned right along with our recruits about what it meant to be a part of the Navy family. When someone got a letter we all cheered. When a recruit was sick, we all worried. When they were having trouble or couldn't pass a test, we all prayed. We friends and then we became a navy family, a force to be reckoned with as those found out who got in our way...lol! We learned about honor, courage and commitment. We had each other's back.

Today we stood in awe as our Sailors showed their pride to the world at their accomplishments. The Great Hall was quiet as 1026 Sailors entered and showed their pride. From the opening drum beat to the final liberty call.the emotions were heart felt. Although it is hard for you right now...you too will feel that moment in several weeks. You will stand in that Hall and be filled with wonder at what your child has accomplished. Your heart will beat a little faster, you'll stand a little taller, smile a little wider and look at those Sailors and say.."I raised this young peron to defend our country." America will look to you and say "Bravo Zulu mom, Bravo Zulu!!"

Like others who posted before me said, join your PIR group, Bootcamp for moms and allow seasoned moms to help you get through this time. They will have great advice for you. Others who are experiencing the same anxiety, fear, and hope will be your best friends. Ask everything you can think of, for the only dumb question is the one you don't ask. Knowledge is power and the more you know the more you can help your child.

God bless you and good luck!!

[blessedsailorsmom ship12div 039]

Well here I am tossed and turned and am balling again but it is so nice to know that I am not alone !! I greatly appreciate the love and support from this group you ladies are awsome! Navy Aunt(AF Wife)thank you for the good tips and advise , Blondie and Eaglemom , Thank you for your prayers and reminding me of my faith ! I love the Lord with all my heart and now my faith is put to a test, I also belive that he has put you ALL in my path in eachothers path for a reason , Thanks so much! AngieFromWA:BUDS Mom/ HM alumnus You are very articulate in your words as well ; when is your book releas? :) I got great encouragment as well as a flash of reality... I am starting to get sick.... and I was thinking I cant because we are leaving to L.A. tommorow to see him off at MEPS and the airport on Monday! and I do want to get that book , I have 5 kids and he is the baby of the first three, at some point I will share my story a bit more in deph but it has been a great journey to be were I am at today! Im so glad I can look back at this blog and re read the comments from my new friends!!.. LASmom1110 HELLO !!!! another mom thant has their baby leave on the 8th !! You, Chriss mom and I are like " The 3 MuskaTEARS !! " ( or 3 wipe a tears ) and I will be leaning and crying thank you! jessicaB- sailor Mom "I agree" ! There is one day left till LA and then there is Monday! or local HarleyDavidson club does a escort drive fromBakersfield to the grapevine! they and a local car club are doing this for my son on Sunday after church! my son was excited he gets one more service since we thought last week was his last one here before he left ! but it will be very emotional but I am blessed to see the support ! chris' mom I will messege you right now and you as well LAsmom! love u all !!!

[blessedsailorsmom ship12div 039]

Lynne (S7/DIV357/PIR11/5) your post was awesome! i felt the room vibrate and heard the drums as i read it ! the encouragement from you was nice to hear as it has been so recent that you baby was off as well ! I look forward to the PIR group ! and am waiting the next step! God bless and Yes united mom and prayers ARE indeed a force to be reckoned with !!! Now on with ny day as I have other problems here at home that are needind prayer ! I just don't need it right now and have been hanging on till my boy leaves and dosn't have to worry about anything but him ! "tears in the shower" LOL <3 u all !!!

[blessedsailorsmom ship12div 039]

Omgsh I am now here in LA and will be seeing my baby swear in and like my my daughter said " irony is that he will give up his freedom for ours" he just text me right now as I right you all friends and said be loves me and the address of meps I am at the motel and everyone is asleep my I podtpuch is gonna die and can see with out my glasses but wanted to check in and let u guys know thank u all

[Ms. Ampi USS Germantown]

Hang in there my friend:)

[blessedsailorsmom ship12div 039]

so... im back and now it's time for a good cry... I just got back from meps and my 6 yr old was balling ... it was very hard for him well.... for all of us.... I pray that LAsmom1110 and Chris' Mom r ok>>>> awaiting to share the support and tears.

[blessedsailorsmom ship12div 039]

the first night with him one at BC... I have his baby bro next to me asleep

[LAsmom1110]

Well...he's gone. Talk about a broken heart....but this too shall pass. I am sooooo very proud of my son. He sent me a text message after I left him at the hotel and said...i love you mom...and thanks :-) for everything. It melted my heart. He hugged me so tight and I just held him and told him how proud I was and that he is soooo courageous for doing what he's doing. He has earned the highest respect and I am honored to be his mom. My baby.....is now a man. I've raised him well....and I am pleased. My highest respect (and hugs) to all of you moms out there who have done the same. These are the men that honor and protect our country....and they are sooo very special in my heart. And now I wait....for that 10 sec phone call.....

[LAsmom1110]

correction....men AND women that serve, honor, and protect our country.....my prayers are for all of you and your families. May God bless!