My Son Left for Boot-camp on April 10th, from Sacramento and I'm Lost...

[Jeramys Mom ship3-div-173]

My son left for BC on 4/10(2 days ago) and I still cant seem to find any comfort. I miss him like crazy, and am still crying when I think of him. I keep going to his room just to see if I can feel his presents, 

When people try to console me I just walk away. Everything they say makes me cry harder.. How do I make this feeling go away? I feel like I have abandoned him, and I just want my baby back.  I feel physically sick to my stomach, and Alone. I know I'm not alone, my 13 year old son and Husband are still here, and trying to make me feel better, but the alone feeling wont quit.. I cried at work, and on the way home.

Everything I read on here sounds so similar to how I feel, but the degree just doesn't seem to be the same.  
Am I crazy???? Will this feeling really go away???? And How in the world can a Mom feel so much pride and resentment at the same time?????  

 I thought that this would make me feel better, but I cried the whole time I was typing.

Well Thanks for listening to me Vent(feel sorry for myself). 

I really do appreciate this site, and all of your Sons and Daughters for Protecting Our Freedom, 

But I want MY Baby Back........

[Lisa]

I know exactly how you feel.  My daughter left on March 27th and I have been totally lost without her.  I feel it has been so hard because we don't get to talk to them.  When she left I cried all the time for the first week or more and no one could even look at me or mention anything and I would cry.  Someone could say good morning to me and I would start crying.  When I got her box was the worse day.  I couldn't stop crying and wondering how she was.  I will say that this website has been a blessing to me.  Reading though things and watching videos of how things work have helped some.  Also I just found out about this facebook page called U.S. Navy Recruit Training Command and they take random pictures of the recruits and I actually found a picture of my daughter in it last night.  I cried and laughed all at once. She has only been gone two weeks and two days and I still cry but more like once a day now instead of from morning til night.It has really helped to find out when she is graduating, I have been getting plane tickets and hotel reservations... That has made me happy thinking of seeing her that day.  I also write her daily.  I have not gotten anything back yet except the form letter saying her graduation date and address.  Looking forward to that.  I think I have learned that it helps me to think of the little steps.  The form letter and then the first letter then the first phone call... it just makes it seem a tad bit shorter.  The pictures I found were the best help though!  I will pray that you can hang in there.  I promise it will get a bit better.  I still miss my baby with all my being and I still cry daily, but I keep telling myself I will get to see her soon.  Try and stay very involved with this website.  I think the more I have learned the better I felt, I knew nothing about the military.  God Bless you and your family and if you ever need to talk let me know.

[starksmom]

It's so funny that we all seem to feel the same way when our babies join the military services. My daughter left for bootcamp on March 13th. She's on ship 03 Div. 140. I agree with all the other moms who say that first week was torture. Getting her box with her things was horrible. I still go into her room every night and hug her pig pillow. I've received several letters from her and we even got a phone call last week which helps but nobody can prepare you for the lost feelings we all share. I was lost when she left for her freshman year at Ohio State but that was nothing compared to this. I think it's perfectly okay to cry when you need too. I also think only a mom can understand the need too. My son is leaving for bootcamp later this summer and I'm dreading doing this all over again. People keep telling me how proud we should be of our kids. I think all military families are proud but that doesn't help when someone asks how you're doing and you start sobbing. I guess all we can do is hang in there and count down the days until graduation...20 days for us!!!  God bless all of the moms who are going through this and all of our kids who are apparently a lot stronger than we are lol

[Debbie049]

My son left also on the 11th of April,,,,,I've been crying everyday from missing him....they said he would call when he got to Great Lakes and I stayed up all night with the phone in my hand and there was no call......Its the hardest thing in the world to let your kids become adults and see them off.....I miss his voice, smile and loving ways every second of the day....I started writing to him the moment he left and continue until I receive a address to send it to......There is a very empty feeling - very - its not empty nest - it just feels like a part of you has disappeared and you can't talk or anything.....Its a isolated feeling.....I sleep with his shirt everynight...and just can't wait to hear his voice......I miss him so much as many of you do....its much harder than I thought it would ever be - 6 months ago he said he wanted to join - I was excited for him but it seemed like a far time away.....now it came and gone and I wish I had those 6 months back again....unfortunately we can't go backwards need to move forward....I always make sure I put something in the letter that would make him laugh.....and to let him know how much he is loved and missed.....Good luck to all of us for being so strong.....

[andrewsmom]

My son left on the 11th of april, I miss him like crazy. I guess its a good thing that dont let them write for 3-4 weeks, Cuz I would probably tell my son to get his butt home, (no, I wouldnt I was joking). I know its best for them but it doesnt mean we have to like it.

[terri]

Terri-Kevins mom my son left March 20. He called me at work March 19 said they had an opening and was leaving March 20. He wasn't suppose to leave until May 15. Overnight he was gone. I am still crying and totally get what you are saying. Kevin is ship04 DIV.812. He got to call me. We talked 45 min. It was beautiful. I still have that sick feeling in my stomach I keep praying it will go away. It felt pretty good to write this but I just want him to come home. God bless to all.

[MattsMom (Division 212)]

My son left March 14th and graduates May 11th, I know exactly how you feel, I was unfunctioning for the first week! But like they've all said it gets easier with each day and each day gets you closer to seeing your SR! Once I let go over the deep sorrow, I could breathe a little easier and start feeling the pride taking it's place. Good luck to you and your SRs

[fourplusone (ship11 Div 177)]

Barbi you made me cry..My son also left on the 11th from central Florida.Ship 11 Div 177 We waited for 5 yrs for him to find direction in his life. I had a talk with him and told him to ask God for His guidance. I told him all his friends are moving on and you are still here stuck in a rut. Well he had that talk with God and he told me that he was guided in the direction of the Navy. I was and still am so very happy for him. I miss him terribly. I cry often but I'm being selfish. I am not thinking about the great life he is embarking on I am thinking about my needs and how much I want him home. It gives me great comfort knowing that he has finally found his way and I am so proud of him. He was really looking forward to starting boot camp and I can't wait till I get a call from him. I called his phone today knowing he would not answer but  hoping to hear his voice on the recording. But it was just a prerecorded message that we all have. I was really disappointed.  I will make sure when I give him his phone back that he records a message of his own. Just for mom..lol his PIR is 6-15-12 can't wait.

[Jeramys Mom ship3-div-173]

I would like to tell all of you wonderful moms that responded to my Post, Thank you for all you helpful words of encouragement. It really did help. I cried reading all of them. I just wanted you all to know that I feel for each and every one of you. It is so hard giving up our Babies to the NAVY, I think its even harder accepting that someone else is telling them what to do and how to dress, etc....... That is our jobs, Right?LOL
But seriously, I got a call from him after only three days, it was only 3 minutes long, but it was the best call ever. He told me that no matter how old he gets, he will always be my Baby. then he said the food was good and they yell all the time for no reason, but it wasn't as bad as he expected.. And the reason they got the call was because they Marched perfectly..Then I got an added bonus from a facebook page, I actually saw a picture of him, he was marching into his ship for the first time, Wow they look so young.... anyhow when I saw the picture, I just knew that he was gonna be alright, but my heart still misses Him, his smile, and his humor, and I cannot wait to see him at PIR on June 8th......by the way he is Ship-03 Div-173
Thank you again for you thoughts and Prayers, and please know that my thoughts and Prayers are with you as well........