So I am sitting here trying to figure out how to get through the holidays without my son. My family has always done the holidays really big, from presents, food, music & lets not forget the visit from Santa. I know that my baby is no longer a baby and letting go is the hardest. I pray on it each day that I will get the strength I need to get through without feeling so sad and alone. He is an amazing young man and has risen to the top in bootcamp advancing to E3, leading his A school and now preparing to be deployed oversees to Greece.