He just left for Bootcamp.. How was your goodbye experience?

[Lucille21 Ship 09 DIV 417]

My fiance's mom and I just dropped him off at MEPS to send him to the hotel. Tomorrow we'll be seeing him swear in for the last time before he heads out to Great Lakes and my god. My fiance and his mom are pretty much a military family. His dad was in the Army and his dad before him, so goodbye is pretty easy for them. I on the other hand come from a emotional type family lol. I held it in as much as I could while I was with his mom so she didn't think I was overreacting but when we got back into their house all I could think about was no more movie nights, no more cuddle sessions and no more having him there to laugh and talk to as much. I got in the car and let it out. I see him tomorrow before he gets on the bus but want to know how it was saying goodbye to your sailor? 

[Lucille21 Ship 09 DIV 417]

Ana! I kid you not I was just thinking about what number I should look for in the 3rd to 4th week! I work at a cell phone carrier and have numbers calling me left and right so to find the area code to be looking for, you just saved my life! My prayers go out to your son and your family. I didn't realize how it would be because in the beginning, I had about 5 months with him before he left. We spent every single day together not thinking too much about it but the very last day. The very last minute before he got on the bus is when it hit me. It really is the hardest thing.. 

[EmilyandChris]

Lucille- I felt the same way! I was paranoid he'd meet someone else in the navy but than I heard that girls and guys can't really go near each other. Try not to think negative like that. That's what I was thinking until I heard that about the girls. And one girl I met, her boyfriend is on the same ship/div as Chris. So maybe they know each other and now we talk alot and just express our feelings. The other girl I met, her boyfriend isn't in the same ship/div as Chris but they graduate the same day! We all plan to hopefully see eachother there. And tbh I'm looking for more outfits to wear in Chicago than the first day of school! Lol but it's fun to have expectations and try to impress him. I was never the "dress up" type of girl. So now I want his jaw to drop when I see him! Lol I always think of what to say if he ever calls or when I see him. Like I'm nervous at how he's going to react but all I know is I'm not gonna wanna talk, I'm just gonna wanna run up to him and give him the biggest hug and just stay in his arms.

I haven't heard from Chris since he left August 15:/ although today might be the day I recieve a letter. Fingers crossed! I really hope i hear from him today. I haven't gotten a call either. But it's ok. This is what us navy girlfriends are gonna get put through. Expect the worst but hope for the best! No news is good news ! But ever since your man left, haven't you just fallen for him so much more? Bc I have. In my 3 years of dating him, I've never felt like this before. But it is an amazing feeling!

[Lucille21 Ship 09 DIV 417]

Emily- It's week 4 for Chris isn't it! Hopefully you guys get a call or some type of update of how he's doing. If you it would be awesome to hear how he is :) 

I think it's awesome that you've met people who are literally going through the same thing you are in the same moment! I can't wait to find out what division he's in so I can meet other people and find out they've gone about it all too. 

Lol I also think it's awesome that you want to get super cute for grad! I've seen one pic and you are crazy gorgeous! I'm sure his jaw will drop! When did you find out his grad day? 

So last night I got a call from a friend I haven't spoken in months since I've been with Kash. He was my best friend and wasn't too excited about my relationship. When I talked to him, it seemed like he was going through so much and was so stressed out, he just broke down. He let out all his stress and anxiety through venting but, I kid you not, out of nowhere he stated talking about Kash. He doesn't know Kash more than one day of them meeting yet he was really loud about how cheating was a possibility and how thing are going to change when Kash gets back. It was the worst negativity and it broke me. I FINALLY got a word in and defended my relationship like crazy. By the end of the conversation, he apologized and said he was overwhelmed with his issues that he didn't mean what he said. It hurt but it made me realize how strong my relationship with Kash is. It made me feel so much better in the end. Kind of like I beat the doubts I even had myself.

What also helped was knowing that I'm not the only one who felt any type of worry, Emily you have no idea how much easier this has all been because of your advice and experience! 

[EmilyandChris]

Lucille!- I got my letters today!!!! 4 envolopes but 7 letters inside!! I missed his call today because I was a work and I wanted to cry but I got home and found 4
Letters waiting for me! I cried hysterically... Not bad, I was smiling and crying at the same time! Lol he constantly told me how much he loves me. My favorite line he wrote was "someone asked me if I could bring one thing to bootcamp what would it be? I said you." My heart dropped and I cried even more! I feel so relived he wants to still be wth me and loves me just as much as I do. I fell so inlove with him these past weeks. He's constantly asking
How I'm Doing. Still the protective type of boyfriend ...but I love it so much. Now I seriously can not wait to see him !!! 42 days. I can't wait for you to experience this feeling it is awesome. Keep standing your ground against boys. Chris's "best friend" constantly texts me and its weird at a point it seems sketchy to me. And guys think it's ok to tweet me saying I'm hot and everything. Or call me at 2 am asking what I'm doing and to come out with them like no. That's so rude. Always stand ur ground! How have u been holding up?
Xoxoxo

[Lucille21 Ship 09 DIV 417]

I read this and cried! I'm soo happy that you got to hear from him. I can't imagine the feeling you got when you saw the missed call but it all makes up in those letter that he sent you! Did you imagine he would say that in the first letters? I would be the happiest girl if Kash said those thing to me. Just makes you feel like despite these huge changes that he's making in his life, he still sees you as the most important part. I would imagine it would feel reassuring! 

Does it bug you that she's texting you so much? I don't know if it's a girl but when I saw sketchy I imagined it would be. You've got me soo excited about the letters he'll be sending. I'll prob read them over and over again until I see him! 

It's day 2 for me, went out and did so much but since my parents are both out of the house tonight, I have the house to myself. These are the kind of nights where he would be here so I can't even sleep.. I hope this gets easier really soon because I don't like this feeling.. I just really can't wait for those letters. lol I stated writing yesterday, I must have re-wrote them 3 or 4 times. I didn't want to be too cheesy or boring as crazy as that sounds.. 

I'm just ready for grad you know?

I'm sooo excited to hear you got the letters from him! Keep me updated and please keep the encouraging words coming because I'm at my weakest point lol

[EmilyandChris]

No it's actually a boy! That's why it's sketchy like idk why he's constantly texting me.

And I figured this out.. When I was writing my first note to him I tried being encouraging instead of being myself. So when I received his letter I felt like crap because I would only tell him I loved him a few times.. He's been him self without a doubt, being corny, loving and funny. That's what I love most about him. And now in the letter I wrote lastnight i was actually being myself and felt like the letter meant so much more. BE YOURSELF. Things that you would say in person to Kash say in the letter. It will comfort him more. I sent out 7 letters today lol cause he wrote to me on August 28 sayin he only been receiving his moms letters and not mine when I sent my first letter out on August 27th... I hope he got my letters because he wrote to my September 1st but didn't say anything about my letters.... It just sucks not knowing when he gets mail call and all that :( he said to send alot of pictures tho!!

[Lucille21 Ship 09 DIV 417]

lol that is pretty sketchy! Do you think he's just trying to make conversation or is he genuinely trying to see how Chris is?

lol Emily I kid you not I did the same thing you did! I think that's why I had to write my notes about 3 times over! It doesn't feel genuine and I know that everyone writing him letters is going to say the same encouraging things, so I agree! Be yourself and remind him that even though your not there, your still around :)

I'm actually putting off writing to Kash, just because I'm nervous lol! It's the one thing they're going to see for awhile so I don't want to be too cheesy or boring you know?? Any more tips before I send any letters out? lol

I think it's soo sweet that Chris was being lovey dovey!! I hope to God that Kash is like that in his letters! I'm worried that he'll be so swept up in the changes that he won't think too much about missing me..

Have you ever felt like that? I mean before you actually got the letters?

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