Havent gotten on recently but i dont feel the need to anymore. I have made it more than halfway and my coping abilities have become stronger. I guess I just want to do another blog to release pent up feelings that I can't discuss with family or friends because they are getting tired of me saying I miss my sailor and I am just so excited to leave for PIR. I have matured because of my experience. I am thankful for all the wonderful people i have come to know because of this site and other…

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waiting for my first phone call!! omg so i got a letter telling me he was calling today and so i am waiting...trying to keep my mind off of it by going to a work meeting, watching a movie and hanging out with my friends till i hear the ring of my phone!! waiting is so hard and ive realized that talking this thing one week at a time instead of one day at a time is the way to go...it seems faster and well makes me happier! this week certainly started out very badly. i was crying and missing…

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I am such an impatient person (which I guess is prolly not the best trait in a military significant other) but I've learned to deal with my impatience by stopping and thinking. Tuesday will make it three weeks! He's been gone for three weeks :) and when I look back I'm pretty proud of the stuff I've accomplished. I've reestablished old friendships, I've lost a couple pounds, I've been more focused on work and my letter writing skills have greatly improved! I've even managed to strengthen my… Continue

Music is the lifeblood of everyday living. It can lift you up when you feeling sad or tear you down when your feeling happy. I seem to have forgotten that when all I needed to lift my spirits was your face.  I've found music again though and its the best thing ever! My heart can feel happy for you and excited for you without my head telling it to be sad because your gone. Its only week two and this has already been the emotional rollercoaster of a life time :) Its crazy that one person can…

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Its funny how life works out.  The day after a melt down I get his form letter and everything feels better again.  I cant wait to get the next letter, thats all I need. Just a letter to make me feel close and now Im on his mind. I am so ready for the next 6 weeks to finally be over and be able to see him but its all still worth it :) oh Im so happy tonight. Nothing can stand in my way...at least not until the next big meltdown and then letter recieving lol

You know that sick feeling you first felt when your sailor walked away from you either to the car to take them to the airport or you actually watched that airplane take off towards chicago. Yeah well its been about two weeks and that feeling is finally starting to wear down. Im no longer constantly trying to keep myself from throwing up with worry for him. I no longer feel like I was left behind to fend for myself.  I wasnt left behind by my sailor, by the love of my life.  He is doing this…

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I just want to know his PIR date!! Is that too much to ask? Gah! Oh well guess I better learn patience seeing as its practically required for Navy wives lol I just want to hear his voice or get a letter telling me he is alive. I miss him. I guess thats all for today and the next couple days.....until I get his grad date

i get his address today!!! my stomach is in knots and i feel sick but im so excited to finally send him letters. i got his box yesterday from his parents house :) he addressed it to me! haha i know lame but very exciting to finally get something of his that says he's still alive and not just a dream lol im so happy today, im hoping to get his PIR date but we'll see how everything goes.  this blogging stuff really does help kinda let all the pain out, im glad i can write letters and just vent… Continue

I smile every night i fall asleep knowing that when i wake up i have one less day to walk through in hopless agony waiting for the feel of your lips on mine. you seem like a dream of a happier time when things were simple and there was sunshine. i look at our pictures and beam with pride knowing that you were always one to strive for the best and now your following your dreams and helping me to realize mine your strength and honor and courage and pride. your support and love and loyalty are…

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Wow today has probably been the toughest day of my life. I go to talk to patrick a couple times before he finally got to boot camp but in the time he was on the plane our dog got hit by a car and is now at the vet's doing well, from what i am told and then i go to work with my cell phone turned on waiting for that last phone call from him to tell me he loves me and everything will be ok and instead my phone doesnt let his call come through and all i get is a voicemail...dont get me wrong im… Continue

Sitting here after the dinner we just had with friends and family, i realize that sometimes it may seem like so much work having to deal with all the emotions caused by my sailors choice to join the navy but it is all worth it in the end. hearing the words "im gonna miss you more" come out of his mouth makes everything feel right.  knowing how hard it must be for him to leave his life and everything he's ever known makes me feel sad that i never thought of it first and asked him how he was…

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i guess this is the beginning of my life as a navy wife. 

even tho im only a fiance now i still have all the duties of a wife. my sailor, patrick, is starting his journey in the united states navy on october 26, 2011. i am so proud of him and all that he will accomplish in this career path. i am however a little devestated that he is leaving the only life ive known since highschool ended. the one where he and i are together.  im soooo scared to be forgotten by him but i have to trust…

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