Never enough time / he's there

[sassymom9503]

So we took our last little trip with our Son to San Fran
It was a fun weekend with lots of laughs n memories
I remember last Friday thinking today was still a
Week away and we had plenty of time
It went by so fast !!!! He didn't get to do everything
He wanted but he got a lot done we got home n time
Went faster before I knew it we were watching him
Say goodbye to family n friends had our last family
Dinner n he was off to the hotel I felt like I had been
Punched in the gut I couldn't vetch my breath
Being strong for him was hard n I did my best
But tears fell many many of them the next morning
We went to Meps to sit with him until he left for the airport
One final kiss n hug and my son was off his new
Journey began I'm so proud of him and as I watched
Him walk away my eyes saw a brave young man but
My heart still sees that small little boy who's hand
Fits in mine small voice says I love you momma
And his sweet giggle lingers forever he looked out
The window n gave me one last I love you smile
See you soon my Son be strong

We got our 30 second phone call he sounded good
Tired but good I could hear other boys in the background
Saying the same words to their mommas so I know he's not
Alone I wrote my first letter minutes later n fell
Back asleep be still my heart our boy is strong
Smart and will do great!!!!

Now counting the Fridays until I get to see him
Hold him again Hooyah!!!!!

[kbiederman]

sassymom9503 I want you to know that 9 weeks ago I said the same exact thing, I felt I couldn't breath, we not only say good bye to our child but we say good bye to his childhood and he will never be under your roof as a child and live in his bedroom again and it is a sort of morning for that, but you are not alone there are tons of moms who feel and felt the same way. This website is a god send and helped me so much. If there is anything I can help you through this journey please let me know. My son graduated this last weekend and his new journey

[sassymom9503]

Thank you so Much!!! its refreshing to know that someone gets it!!!! grieving for your childs childhood is very hard and takes time and i got through all the stages of greif from day to day and today i was in the anger stage for a bit someone said something that im sure was ment to be nice about my son and his journey and well i took it the wrong way and got very up set about it.... it was something like i was stating how i was feeling and she said well isnt it great he is starting his Journey!!! Hey wait  I know this is His Journey But I have feelings to you know!!!! i dont know maybe im just sensitive right now!!!!

Yes this website is incredible I am so glad i found it... How was your sons graduation and your time with him? do you know when you will see him again, with your son in A School now how much communication do you have with him? How is the experience different then boot camp?

[Sheree]

Hi gals, I get it too. I cry so much. It's getting better but I'm in tears right now reading this. Only moms can understand how we feel. I try to laugh a lot that helps. I keep a necklas he bought for me on, I wear it every day and will continue too. I feel connected to him when I wear it. I know things will get better with time. I'm glad he is living his dream for him. He has to do whats right for him and not for me. We're all so proud of our kids and we should be.its been a week and I'm counting down the weeks to grad day. Man, it's pretty cool to look forward to something like this. The anticipation is great.

[sassymom9503]

The Anticipation is Great and I too am so very HAPPY for My Son and his life is going to be amazing but I am too still dealing with the seperation the best I can I think of My Son Often like every minute I think of what he is doing but I also write him alot when I can send letters he is going to have lots I try to stay busy and when the tears come I smile and i smile until they stop its something My Son told me to do and it works!!!!

[HuffyMom23]

I am getting choked up just reading what you all have said.  This site is awesome and it feels good to read the different things all of us mothers are going through.  I am extremely happy and proud of my son for making this decision to join the Navy.  But I get so sad when I think about him and what he is experiencing now in BC.  We talked to our son last Sunday, and he talked the whole 18 minutes trying to tell us everything.  When I answered the phone though he got choked up.  Then he talked to his dad for a bit.  He then asked for me again so I got to talk to him in the end too.  Broke my heart because I could tell when they yelled to get off the phone he didn't want to hang up yet. I haven't heard that child get emotional since he was little, so it caught me off guard.  Now I have been wondering the whole week if he is okay.  Today is 3 weeks since he arrived at BC. 

[sassymom9503]

HuffyMom23 How long into BC until you received such a treasure of a phone call from your son? I cant wait for that day I find myself carrying my phone every where with me i know its to soon to get a call I just got The Box Today and no Form Letter yet But I feel like if i dont i could miss a call, and I too think about what is going on often what he is doing how he is coping, I am sure the phone call was emotional ..... I cried for hours just when we got the Im Here call... and today when i opened the box i cried even though i was so happy to get the box

I just miss my Son.... This is so Hard for Us but I keep trying to remember to be Strong cause I am sure its so much Harder for Him

[HuffyMom23]

Well he left on September 11th, and we got our first call (besides when he arrived at BC) last Sunday.  So just a few days shy of 3 weeks.  He told us he would rather call then write because he wanted to use that time to prepare for inspections this week.  I am so confused as to what week it really is for them.  He told me physically everything is fine for him.  He was having the hardest time adjusting to the mental part of BC.  He is a really good young man.  He was a holy terror as a child, but did a complete turn around in Jr. High. lol  I know he will pay attention and listen, but sometimes I don't think that matters if the whole group gets in trouble. 

It is so interesting to know that we are all having the same feelings.  I actually cleaned my sons room and that made me feel a little better.  Looking at his bed unmade and his stuff laying around was just too hard.  One mother posted on here that she felt like she had totally lost her son and she was mourning him.  That is exactly how I felt the first couple of days.  Bawled my eyes out every time I thought of him.  Told my husband I wanted to go get him and drag him home!  He said I don't think that can happen. lol  I am very proud of all of these kids and know when I see him again will be the best feeling ever.   

[sassymom9503]

Thank you for the Time Line I cant wait for the day I get the Phone call I got My Letter Today and i was so happy to get the address to mail his letters and part of me didnt want to tell anyone I wanted to keep him all to myself but then i know he would love to get letters and feel the love and support from all that love him you are so right that is how i felt to like i was greiving for my son i actually find myself going through mood swings i think my emotions are just on edge but today I almost took off a loved ones head  verbally lol cause they said something that rubbed me the wrong way ........ I am too so very proud of all these kids as well its so amazing what they are doing for themselves and the country